I felt so guilty
After the 3rd person messaged me that they hadn’t seen a new podcast episode in a few weeks, I started feeling guilty. That's when I knew it was time for a reframe. It was time to change guilt to gratitude, because I do feel grateful that you were missing the show and that you care enough to message me.
Part of the reframe was forgiving myself for not being perfect. This journey isn't about perfection and I feel grateful that I was able to mobilize quickly, let go of the "guilt trip" and reframe what was happening.
I hadn’t realized that the time was slipping away from me. My work situation has been in transition and I've been doing trainings for mindfulness and Somatic Experiencing the past few weekends. The podcast is still currently a one-man show, and truly a labor of love. I honestly really care about it and get excited to share it with you...which is where the guilt came from.
As a way to say thank you for your patience I dropped 2 new episodes yesterday.
The first one is a solo episode I recorded recently going over my experience completing the 2nd Somatic Experiencing Professional training module. Somatic Experiencing (SE), is a body-based approach to trauma therapy developed by Dr. Peter Levine, and the method has been a game changer for my psychedelic integration and really for my whole life- enough that I decided to start this 3 year journey to become certified!
In the podcast I go into some of the nuances of this method, and how it aids in regulating the nervous system and working with trauma. This recent 4 day module was all about self-protective responses, the importance of small progress steps (titration), and the value of resources for managing trauma. And during the episode I lead you through a resourcing exercise you can add to your toolbox to quickly regulate your nervous system and feel more comfortable in your body.
The second episode is back to the bevy of amazing guests…Jamie Clements was my second guest on the podcast, back when it was still called “One Question Wednesday” that I was creating on Instagram live!
How many of you remember those days? P.S. those old episodes are on youtube and my instagram.
This time we dropped into much more than one question. Jamie is a leader in the breathwork space and one of my favorite people to chat with. He’s been super gracious and is an inspiration for me as I continue to develop and grow as a facilitator. Our conversation goes into a variety of breathwork and personal development related topics including the importance of integrating scientific evidence into breathwork, the power of cold water immersion, and the need for an open-minded, curiosity-driven approach as we push ourselves into (sometimes) uncomfortable spaces.
Those should keep you busy while I get the rest of the season ready. There are some great conversations coming up that are already recorded like microdosing enthusiast and entrepreneur Cesar Marin, a mind-blowing conversation (and meditation that I’m so excited to share) with fractal psychology expert Saemi Nakamura, and a cool chat with integration coach and yoga teacher Jonathan “Quest” Brown.
Enjoy the new episodes here, By the way, if you could leave a review of the podcast it would be amazing. Right now there are only 6 reviews and I know there are more people listening because I can see the audience numbers!
About the Author
Jonathan's interest in the transformative power of the breath is driven by his own healing journey. After practicing meditation and mindfulness in the Zen and Tibetan Buddhist traditions for almost 20 years, he rediscovered breathwork during a dark night of the soul and was amazed at the impact the practice had on his life.
After exploring several types of breathwork and working to create his own system, he found Neurodynamic Breathwork and completed an extensive facilitator-training program that was equal parts breathwork, deep personal development, and training in how to hold space for expanded states of awareness and support others through authentic presence.
This training, combined with lessons learned integrating his own extensive experiences with plant medicine helped Jonathan launch his brand “Blue Magic Alchemy ” that provides 1:1 integration and transformation coaching, a podcast, breathwork and meditation circles, and information to support grounded exploration into altered states of consciousness.